The Thought To The Grave

"You can take only one thought with you to the grave, and invariably it is a thought that bugs you..."

My first thought would be I  have loved and they loved me. I have no regrets, but I know I have no witness to my life.  Pity though, I have enjoyed my life.  They did not love me enough nor did I love them enough. We all missed out on that one.
Two quotes that sum it up:

When it comes to men, I must admit I have very poor judgment,’ she said. ‘I’ve turned down most of the few really nice men I’ve encountered in my life, and have gone unerringly for the dysfunctional, maladjusted, insecure bastards every time.

Well, I dabbled with men in my twenties. Quite a lot actually.
But they all seemed so frightfully fond of themselves - they didn’t seem to really need me to be fond of them as well.  So I just got on.

So now anyone who reads this has the most true entry into my soul.  I have never admitted any of this before.

I Am Back

But you didn't even know I was gone, did you?
My daughter decided to fix my computer and ended up - well let us just say that it has taken almost two weeks and many phone calls to Apple and some special disc, but she did it!  It is like a brand new computer and so I have some new visuals to get used to, and I did not lose a single file that I have seen so far.
A  lot has happened and when not watching Midsomer Murders, Call the Midwife, Inspectors Morse, Lewis and Endeavor, I have pondered some of the goings on in the world.
Baltimore - except for Fells Point and the Inner Harbor area and the Walters Art Museum, it is a hell hole of their own making.  I haven't been there since 2006.
The ever growing field of presidential candidates - what is wrong with the media when they go on about how this candidate will get so and so votes.  Good lord, but we know this, I certainly hope voters don't look at only one aspect of a candidate and look at the bigger picture.  I have always refused to be put into a "category."
I missed the brouhaha waiting for the birth of Princess Charlotte (horrible name) and didn't find out until Monday.
I heard of the tragic murder suicide of a couple I knew.  On the day it was discovered, they came into my thoughts and I wondered how they were doing.  Now I know why they came into my thoughts.  I must remember to pray for people when this happens.
More for another day, I am sure......